Over the years...!

Yay I managed to spiffy up my blog a bit.
I've realised that I've changed a lot over the years. (Wow big surprise, I know).
I managed to get hold of some pictures from a few years back...2005! Who would've known I would still be as girly today. Hah I can't believe I was just 14 there.. I think this was during my "MORNING MUSUME ROCKS MY WORLD"-phase.

I think most people have some kind of "phase" that they, after a few years- look back at and laugh, when only a few years earlier, they would've found it completely sound and definitely not something to laugh about.
<-- 2007
I've also learned that, as you "grow older" (I sound like a middle-aged lady now), you tend to forget about "fitting in", following "the norm". I guess you turn into a salmon...? They swim against the current. (Oh yes, another lame simile)- but you'll learn to appreciate it.
I think that for once I can admit that I'm quite happy with every single factor of my life. Puberty is definitely no joke- but we all learn something through it.

As I consoled a friend in need, I realised, not only was my blurted-out-crap creative, it was to an extent pretty true. As a teenager you tend to follow the mainstream groups, stereotype yourself and "jump off a bridge with the others"- if you will. But after the first.. 4 (?) years of teenage life, when you're "almost all grown up -sob sob-", you've evolved into someone almost completely different.
I used to be quite introverted in middle school, mostly because I hated it there, kids could be so cruel. Especially when it came down to peer pressure. If you weren't "one of them" you were better off at a freak show. When I find myself thinking of those 3 years of literal hell, I feel a sense of pride. What did they have that I didn't have? I used to think to myself, but now I've grown to realise it wasn't what they had, it was what I had. Determination.
I also learned to pity those kids that I used to, pretty much, hate. It wasn't necessarily because of their personalities that they were bullies, it was because of their weaknesses.
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I still see some of these kids that I so intently used to despise. I couldn't be any more indifferent to them today, but I also notice that they're pretty much as they used to be. Under peer pressure, wearing the latest clothes (even if they look hideous in them), the same over-done make-up and using those fake voices. It's a shame that they won't come out from under that polished, "perfected" shell.

Something that my parents always used to console me with was,
"You have 3 years with these people, you've showed them where you stand, and that you have a mind of your own. After the 3 years are up, you won't ever have to put up with them again. You're in school for one reason, securing a proper education for your future. Anything else can go to hell."