New Year New Year

Finally, year 2008 has come to an end.
Evaluation: In the year that has finally come to its end I've definitely endured a lot of pain and drama- I could probably enlist this year as one of the worst ones yet. In early 2008 I was addicted to an online game- which led to an all-time loooow in my grades and by the time I managed to untangle myself from the game, it was too late to fix my failing grades. I doubted myself too many times this year- I shed way too many tears than necessary, I think I've shed every single (negative) kind of tear there is to shed. Towards the summer I indulged myself in golf- golf and golf. Things were starting to look brighter but then- he came along and ruined a few weeks of my holiday. My best friend was out of town for 5 weeks and by the time she got back I was gone for 2- for the first time in a very long time: I was unable to meet up with her, and as she had no access to Internet whatsoever I had no way of interacting with her over the break.
End of August- school started again, I had worked my butt off the last week before the beginning of term to do a second test in math and physics for my school grades- fortunately I got rather high marks and was able to pick up from where I had left things.
Some subjects went well, some were decent.
And then..
Well- all hell broke loose. I let myself get carried away too many times, behaving like a spoiled brat and blind to all surroundings, I lost a good friend, and also- momentarily- my only best friend.
I dwelled in my past and felt alone and cast-aside while I was actually surrounded by people who cared and loved me.
I wanted my knight in shining armour to whisk me off my feet- but at what costs?

Looking back- I believe I've learned a lot from this year, but unfortunately I had to learn all that first-hand.. I hope 2009 brings me more joy than sorrow, and that I will be able to use the knowledge I gained from past mistakes.
I hope that I won't be as irrational and naive as I was last year.
Happy New Year. About time the new one came along..