I apologize for that, though I am sure no one stays around to read my pointless ranting anyhow.
I am now in my final year of High School, which is a very bittersweet time for me now. On one hand I am definitely excited about moving on in life, while on the other I am going to miss the friends I have now- as I am pretty sure that I will not see again- for a good length of time. I know I have mentioned this before but time really does change a person, be it time or the time taken for a person to mature and shape but nevertheless time is most definitely the biggest factor.
Today I bumped into an old classmate from middle-school, he was in fact someone I used to dislike quite a bit, or to be a bit more civil, "couldn't get along with." I know that it's naive or even a bit childish of me to believe I'd still harvest those kind of ill feelings toward some people from my past, but you know what they say, "old habits die hard"... or do they? As I saw him my first reaction was to look away and hope he did not notice me, however as he passed by he automatically came up to me again and greeted me briefly with a smile, and then left for his bus.
His behaviour left me with a million questions in my head. Not only had this person tormented my entire three years of middleschool, now he had the gaul to wave his past childish behaviour away and all the history we've established in that single 10 seconds of greeting? I didn't dwell on it too long, but I did think of our brief meeting as a little unexpected, the way there was no longer any childish hatred, impatience or even the least bit annoyance with each other. It's funny how people change. It's especially funny how you can have this one single image of a person completely wiped away in the span of a few seconds, after years of having thought you knew them.
Thinking back on what I did today, I realise that both events that occupied my late morning, involved my not-so-distant past and my not-too-far-away future. This sounds very philosophical but I assure you it is not, as I am nowhere near philosophical grounds- at least I would not write about it or with the manner, out of own free will- unless it was unintentional...which this probably is. In which case I apologize for being overly-philosophical...I have a tendency to get lost in my words and thoughts.
Today, I went to Lund University to attend their Open House event. A great opportunity for lost souls such as myself, to ever so slightly- clear up the mist of their futures. I have narrowed down my options to strictly just engineering, then of course (....as life is what it is)...they have 14 different courses of Engineering at Lund University (Maybe even more, just to mess with my head.) On top of that, when you have finally chosen a specified engineering field you would like to study, you will soon find out that you have more specific courses to choose between, within the course you've already had to choose. Am I making sense? (regardless if the response was yes or no)... Good...! So after 3 hours of asking different people the exact same questions, getting slightly different responses each time, I now know that I am NOT going to be doing architecture. At least for now. I constantly change my mind. I am sure many are aware of that as it is. Right?
I tend to get too carried away by things, and my attention span can be rather short-lived so I know that what I see to be a wise decision now, will be a very bad decision in..a few minutes..or hours...Or seconds. What I certainly know now is that I want nothing else than to shoot straight to University after I graduate, (of course the "shooting straight into Uni after graduation" isn't possible since I have a nice Summerbreak to enjoy in between---An incredibly FORTUNATE thing).But of course I can't afford to start thinking about that future. I firstly have to make my way through my last year of High School- be that as annoying as it may, it won't ever come back to me, yadda yadda- I know.
Why oh Why is the forbidden the most tempting path to take?
